Out Of The Pit - Part 1
Doubt, Fear, Unbelief.
For more than two decades I have struggled with these inner demons. At their worst I have thought about suicide and run from God. Other times I have felt the warmth of hope and the assurance of faith.
Today begins a new chapter in my journey out of the pit.
I will journal what God clearly and plainly tells me over the next seven days. As one who struggles with doubt, there is something very assuring about things external to myself. After all, the doubter's battle is within. I don't trust my own feelings or thoughts.
It's quite humbling, embarrassing, and risky to admit this publicly and to write about what God is telling me personally. The courage to do it came through the story and example of an immoral woman (see Luke 7:36-50). She didn't care how she looked or what others thought of her. She sought out Jesus and broke down, sobbing at his feet. As for me, I've been more like the Pharisee in the story. No more. Even if I fall apart emotionally and mentally and spiritually, I believe it's safe at the feet of Jesus. Lord, give me a heart like this woman had.
Day 1
I thought of a couple of verses that have meant a great deal to me.
For more than two decades I have struggled with these inner demons. At their worst I have thought about suicide and run from God. Other times I have felt the warmth of hope and the assurance of faith.
Today begins a new chapter in my journey out of the pit.
I will journal what God clearly and plainly tells me over the next seven days. As one who struggles with doubt, there is something very assuring about things external to myself. After all, the doubter's battle is within. I don't trust my own feelings or thoughts.
It's quite humbling, embarrassing, and risky to admit this publicly and to write about what God is telling me personally. The courage to do it came through the story and example of an immoral woman (see Luke 7:36-50). She didn't care how she looked or what others thought of her. She sought out Jesus and broke down, sobbing at his feet. As for me, I've been more like the Pharisee in the story. No more. Even if I fall apart emotionally and mentally and spiritually, I believe it's safe at the feet of Jesus. Lord, give me a heart like this woman had.
Day 1
For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us. (2 Corinthians 1:20)"God keeps every promise He makes." So began today's devotional from Experiencing God Day-by-Day. Comforting words. Hopeful words. God keeps every promise He makes. All of the promises God makes in Christ are Yes.
I thought of a couple of verses that have meant a great deal to me.
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. (Hebrews 10:23)
He himself has said, I will never leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)Then, on the way to work this morning I turned on the radio and heard the following lyrics:
I am, holding on to you. I am, holding on to you. In the middle of the storm, I am holding on, I am. (I Am, David Crowder)At the end of that song, I changed the station and the very next lyrics I heard were:
Nothing compares to the promise I have in you. (Shout To The Lord, Chris Tomlin)
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