Lumos

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I don't see light when I look inside. What I do see is both repulsive and familiar. Out of the darkness, a kaleidoscope of colors that aren't colors at all.

Fear
     Hurt
          Hope
               Doubt
          Pride
     Lust
Apathy

Light of the world, I'm so worn.

Wrap me in light and hold me. Calm my fears and doubts with the warmth of your love. As light expels darkness, so perfect love casts out all fear.

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